Last August while outside on the porch enjoying sun tea and admiring how abundant nature is, I read the following passage from Caroline Myss's book Defy Gravity.  Having dug deep into what many call the dark night of the soul and re-working my basic premise systems, I recalled how most of my life, from age 14 forward, I had made repeated comment about gravity being my enemy.  So this book, which had been sitting on my shelf unread for some time, seemed like it might contain the answer as to why levity, rather than gravity, was my norm.  Although I laugh contagiously and find delight in the simplest of things, inside I always had this silent melancholy that, no matter what I tried or what others did to pull the reason out of me, it just was not anything traumatic in this life nor any apparent imbalance.  When I read this passage a gigantic flood of effervescent ecstasy overcame me.  I was sobbing with happy tears, finally understanding this slight sadness within.  I do believe that each of us are sparks of creator and thus are each unique Prophets. Finding your authentic gift and sharing this is difficult indeed because our systems are based on scarcity. Fitting the abundance of our gifts into that is often not wanted or even respected.  For me this passage opened a release valve that I am forever grateful for. 

"The grace of Counsel is not an easy grace with which to be gifted, even slightly.  The great mystics have often written that theirs is a painful journey.  The kind of pain they are speaking about, however cosmic, is not physical, but the deep interior pain that comes with knowing that truth is incomprehensible to the ordinary mind.  They come to realize, for example, that "All is One,” not just intellectually, but through the eyes of their soul.  That “oneness” is a cosmic truth that some of them can actually feel, as Francis of Assisi dd.  Imagine having sensitivities that allow you, compel you, to feel the fears of animals or the consciousness of trees.  Or having such a grasp of human nature that you understand how an event will affect society, not because you’re psychic, but because you have a profound knowing of how groups of people behave when they are paralyzed by fear.  You would be able to see the inevitable cycles of destruction that have to occur in order to reestablish balance, but if you offered such counsel to society in order to reestablish balance, it would fall on deaf ears.  Destruction and fear could often be avoided if only people would listen to the counsel of those who can read the patterns, but such information strikes the ordinary mind as useless and impractical, or even nonsense.  How many people are ready to believe that animals have feelings and that they, too, are frightened about the environment? In the face of such great truth, many of the mystics write, the pain of having to be silent and keep one’s own counsel is enormous."

Pg144 2006 Caroline Myss Defy Gravity