Worth maintained
I am so grateful to have inner connections to the exquisite vibrations and manifestations of love. My unemployment ran out recently and for all my compromising and aggressive effort, nothing emerged to help with continuous right livelihood. During unemloyment I took as many free online courses as I could, became an ordained Reverend, donated my time to solution scientists and enterprises, stewarded our land and gardens; helped others with theirs, networked the Birth 2012 resonance, took care of my two grandkids when my daughter was unable, nurtured my teen and championed my son in his advocacy actions, supported my elder father, donated goods and services and involved myself with seed enterprises who have no money for consultants, tended to my physical improvement… I made comments regularly that I have no idea how, when expending over 40 hours a week for others, how I ever got everything done. I have been the most productive unemployed person, never board, never panicked.
Due to oil fracking hiring in eastern Montana, the states unemployment rate is 6.1 which means the federal government does not release money to states for extended unemployment. The reasons matter not. The politics are moot. So I have no health insurance, am not eligible for any public support, have zero income, retirement and savings… In essence, I do not count at all on any statistical tracking and am denied basic care (currently teeth and eyes) because I cannot honestly even sign a payment plan. I am not even on the rolls as being poor. I have sold a few items from the few I have, all of which were given to me or provided in trade. This gives me a tiny pile to use ever so carefully. I have few fixed costs and have never been into consumerism so have no credit card or account bills. I will not pay anymore on the remaining profiteering medical bills (this being the top area that robbed any savings over the many years I could have accumulated). I garden so my pantry is full of teas, natural herbs for medicine, dried and frozen organic foods so I do not have to go food shopping. What I ‘must’ pay are all those basic fixed costs that will not trade services with me like phone, internet, power, property taxes and liability insurance. I will never be homeless again as I worked two years building my debt free home with my dad with a minimal amount of money given to me from my moms death. If the power gets shut off I will still be warm as I also have wood heat and an antique cook stove. I can haul water from dads and take a warm bath there. Its as if I am ahead of the curve on self reliance for when the economic crash and disasters create a world wide depression.
For most of my life I had recurring dreams of me as a boundary jumper relocating and assisting refugees. I had assumed that this was about a past life until one normal day about 10 years ago it struck me like a kundalini experience that the dreams were not about the past, but about the near future.
I am at peace and calm knowing completely that my worth is not based on money or others perceptions of my financial state. I thus am grateful for prior hard times where I and my kids were in effect, homeless. All these experiences taught me to be exceptionally resourceful. I can even fix and build just about anything without buying supplies and do create gifts from supplies others toss out. I know an extensive amount about caring for the physical without traditional medicine and it works to ease the body during these times of great vibrational transformation. By societal presumptions I should be feeling defeated, disenfranchized, failed, worthless… but I absolutely do not. I share my bright love and give to nature and all of life always. I am deeply loved and appreciated by many. What I contribute to without reciprocal monetary compensation is of benefit to the collective. I have been a diligent light-worker for over 2 decades and know that this energy contribution is valuable and has indeed contributed to the now Birth of the new, compassionate and equitable inevitability of the 1000 years of peace and love. How then, could I ever feel worthless? Yes, it is hard not to take comments personally and to have the ‘food chain’ people who have always used and relied on me be upset with my current zero income. In these moments I become the observer rather than the participant. I understand these as their issues and send them love. Its the most potent thing I give and receive.
I am a muse for others. A bright light in many a dark place. I have a serious list of personal and professional skills. If anyone is able to provide the still entrenched aspect of our 3D life (money) for me being your muse, I would certainly appreciate and receive. I will never again compromise my authenticity and love just for the sake of income. I can no longer at all be a part of anything that contributes to harm. The effect of doing so causes great physical consequence to my body and crushes my heart into sadness. I refuse to be in this predicament as it only further deteriorates the collective energy. My soul is fierce about holding higher frequencies on behalf of all.
Everything is as it should be. All is not happening to me but for me even if I cannot grasp the now reasons. I remain open and curious to the opportunities manifesting on my behalf.
